Where I Am Now

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Recently I watched two Netflix documentaries that reinforced further my belief in the intricate interconnectedness of the human body, mind and soul.  “Stories from spiritual leaders, physicians and those with chronic illnesses reveal the powerful connection between the human psyche and physical health” This is the “Heal” documentary.  “Diagnosis” is about asking the crowd to help in providing answers for very puzzling cases. In at least three of the cases, severe physical symptoms are probably caused by trauma, stress and the patients’ perceptions.
As I helped clients as well as pay attention to myself and others around me, l find that, inevitably beliefs and perceptions play big roles in wellness and the management of diseases.  A sense of gratitude and acceptance help give hope and serenity. Unfortunately, most doctors that I have seen, take symptoms and medications piecemeal, and side effects are just after thoughts.  Mind you, I am grateful for the doctors but they are far from being functional doctors who can look at me as a whole person.
I have had allergies and sensitivities since small. My mother thought that since I was such a sissy princess, I should have entered the queen ‘s uterus instead of hers.  I also ate very slowly, and she thought that if a war broke out, I would be the first to die. I still eat very slowly! This is me. I no longer want to justify myself to anyone, including doctors.
I have had difficulties with all sorts of medications and the side effects are not “just in my head”, they have caused real pain and malfunctioning.  I would love to be well enough to be medication free. I want to ignite my capacity for self healing through better nutrition, clear mindful awareness of my thoughts and beliefs, increasing stamina for physical movements; and above all, faithful spiritual practice.
I hope I can write about my healing journey.

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