Trauma: The healing process
Almost a year ago, some harsh accusations were hurled at me. I did not think I would have taken this long to grieve the immense hurt. I guess what happened brought back the trauma of rejection and abandonment I felt as a kid. I felt displaced and lost, like I did not belong anywhere. The structures of my life got scattered and I had to reconstruct new ones before I could function in some stable fashion. As mentioned by Gabor Mate, trauma is a psychological wound, even if the wound has healed, the scar remains. At the crux of my hurt, is that as if I don't matter. Like no amends were made to help me make sense of the need to hurt me, or a sharing of what happened in them that they felt right to say those hurtful words. Just like when I was a child, no one acknowledged that I was hurt. No word of comfort, explanation or God forbid, an apology after a severe beating. Like I was supposed to just take it in my stride, like nothing happened....